TOTHEUNTAMEDHEART.

How could this story be true? 
After all that I do to Him. I hurt Him. Let Him down. Break promises. Self hate. Lust. Doubt. Forgetful. Anger. 

But yet… He still loves me. 

He still loves me so much. How could this be true? How could a Father love me so much, when all of these faults that I display day in and day out, and He still is unconditional. 

It blows my mind away. 

What a great, great Father. 

You meet people, invite them in, and you think that they will show you the same love back that you think you deserve. Relationships, friendships, family, coworkers, etc. We see the love that has been given to us from God, so once we allow that to connect within our lives we try and display that same love to the people within our lives, right? 

So once we share this love, well try to, we then expect that same love back. Yet, we don’t receive that. What now? 

Why did I deserve this? Why do I deserve the pain I’m feeling right now? How come you couldn’t show me the love that I showed you? I gave you my everything, yet you couldn’t give it back to me? Yet, I still love you. I feel like I always will. 

Wait. 

Rewind back a little bit. Remember that little detail a few lines back.. He still loves me… His love is unconditional. 

So we meet someone, okay, and we expect that person to love us like we love them. Do you ever think that maybe Jesus feels that way about us? He didn’t think twice about missing an opportunity to save the people of His world. He loves every single one of us, but we miss that everyday. Why? 

{ We are a selfish generation }

I’m at fault everyday, and it breaks my heart. Why can’t I lay down my own idols, and pick up the One True Idol. He didn’t have a problem with saying no, He never even thought about turning His head. It was a no brainer to Him. Yet we say things like, “It’s too hard to say no” or “I don’t have time” and even “I’m not strong enough” 

Again, for the second time, he went away and prayed, “My Father, if this cannot pass unless I drink it, your will be done.” Matthew 26.42

Jesus was troubled and sorrowful, and spoke to God asking Him to take away the cup. God did not answer, so He spoke again. No answer. Jesus knew that there was no other choice, but God’s. He never even thought twice about following His own path, instead He knelt down and praised His name still. 

With God we can be and do all things, because He is a God that makes the impossible possible. 

So here I am, 2 am in the morning with some of my roommates listening to music, writing, connecting with conversation. 

God planned this all out. I didn’t plan on following through with this, in fact I doubted myself the whole way through. But God had a different plan. He pushed me to get here, to be apart of a community full of vulnerability, guidance, thoughtfulness, forgiveness, and love. This house is my home now, this community of people are my family now. Each day I will fall in love with Jesus more than I did yesterday and more than I will tomorrow. I’m here to transform my life next to 27 other students doing the exact same thing. How cool. An opportunity to love each other, hold each other accountable, being vulnerable, and creating life long relationships. 

Ocean City is my destination for the summer, not on my will, but His. 

I’m forever grateful. 

The story has just begun.. but let me say that I am more than ready to see the novel He has already written out for me. 

Come and join to see the story He has written for myself and for You. 

Now we have received not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, that we might understand the things freely given us by God. 1 Corinthians 2.13